Wednesday, October 03, 2007

My Letters to You

Dear Ms.

Ive considered posting my letters to you here but Ive decided against it. I dont even know if youve read them, but for me its enough that I wrote them.

Do you know that those letters from me to you are killing me? You mentioned once that your girlfriends were jealious that you get them but you've never said what they mean to you.

Do they mean anything to you? Are they what drove you away from me? Are they why your gone? I was totally honest in them and will never recant anything I ever said there, but I wonder every day if they distroyed our friendship or if they have divided us forever. Can you not see me because of what I said there?

I knew they were a risk, and even If if knew then that you would never call again, I think I would have still written them. How could ever be just your friend when my heart pounds at the though of you. The though of never seeing you again eats at my very core, but I could not have been just your friend. Somewhere inside of me, I even dare to dream that you will come back to me again.

Cordell